First post second post.

First of the new blog. I've tried to make other blogs but I was either not very consistent with them or I just talked shite. I will try make this one work but who knows.

I miss Lauren so much. I haven't been the same since things ended. As much as I would like to deny it, My life revolved around that girl. Without her I don't really know what to do with myself. I can't handle being single. She was a big part of my life and it will be a while before i learn to stand on my own. No doubt what I did before caused this, I would take it all back if I could. She was never worth my time.

The lads have really done their best in keeping my spirits up. I love those guys, flaws and all.

I feel really distant from "the group". Seems like I'm falling out or else they're pushing people away, Either way I don't feel as if we're all as close anymore. for 20 odd teens to consistently hang out and be friends is tough, but we did it well so far. Now i feel as if a few people are making a little mini group as it were. Seems like they're hanging and organising nights out and only inviting selected few, Which i think is fuckin bullshit. I invite just about everyone when I'm going out or having a sesh! I think i deserve the same back.

I miss being 18. Best year of my life. 19 has been a fail.